Wouldn't It Be Nice - The Beach Boys

Wouldn't it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long
And wouldn't it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong

You know its gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together

Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through

Happy times together we've been spending
I wish that every kiss was neverending
Wouldn't it be nice

Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn't do
We could be married
And then we'd be happy

Wouldn't it be nice

You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But lets talk about it
Wouldn't it be nice

Good night my baby
Sleep tight my baby


buat saya, lagu ini selalu membuat saya melekat di mimpi dan memilih untuk hidup di mimpi. bahwa saya dan dia akan selalu baik baik saja dan bisa hidup bersama suatu hari nanti. tapi, tanah yang saya pijak sudah runtuh dan ga akan bisa tertata rapi lagi. c'est la vie, mon ami! :)

don't look back in anger - oasis

Slip inside the eye of your mind
Don't you know you might find
A better place to play
You said that you'd never been
But all the things that you've seen
Will slowly fade away

So I start a revolution from my bed
'Cause you said the brains I had went to my head
Step outside, summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out

And so Sally can wait, she knows it's too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don't look back in anger
I heard you say

Take me to the place where you go
Where nobody knows, if it's night or day.
Please don't put your life in the hands
Of a Rock 'n Roll band
and throw it all away

Gonna start the revolution from my bed
'Cos you said the brains I had went to my head
Step outside cos summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out

So Sally can wait, she knows it's too late as she's walking on by.
My soul slides away, but don't look back in anger
I heard you say

So Sally can wait, she knows it's too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don't look back in anger
I heard you say

And So Sally can wait, she knows it's too late and she's walking on by
My soul slides away, but don't look back in anger, don't look back in anger
I heard you say

At least not today.

ketika semuanya berakhir

mengawali dengan air mata, begitupun saya ketika terpaksa mengakhiri semuanya. beberapa bulan menakjubkan yang saya alam bersamanya pun akhirnya selesai. titik. fin. end. finish. tidak mengejutkan juga sebenarnya ketika keputusan itu terlontar, karena sudah lama kami tidak bertegur sapa.

sayang sekali, ketika ternyata dia tidak merasakan apa yang saya rasa. langsung saja, buanyaaaak memori bertubi tubi menyerang saya tanpa ampun. semua hal indah rasanya cuma mimpi saja. sialan, padahal bekasnya masih sangat terasa.bisa bisanya dia dengan mudah menyuruh saya move on and fnd somebody new. sucks.

the point is, dia ga pernah tau, mau tau, dan tau bagaimana rasanya mencintai seseorang sampai sakit, dan kehilangan dengan rasa yang jauuuh lebih sakit lagi pada akhirnya. sudah berminggu minggu saya mencoba menghentikan perasaan sialan bernama cinta dan rindu ini, tapi nampaknya belum bisa juga. padahal yang saya lihat, dia sudah move on easily, ga tau bagaimana saya merangkak dan mengemis agar tetap hidup.

katanya life goes on, dan itu juga yang dia bilang. nyatanya, kemaren saya sempat mati suri beberapa saat. dan memaki apapun yang di depan saya. memaki keadaan, memaki saya yang terlambat berubah, memaki dia yang entengnya pergi. sakit juga rasanya kalau sedang mengingat begini ternyata. lebih sakit lagi ketika dia mencabut sema kata dan janji indah yanng dulu pernah dihadiahkan untuk saya. i do feel so dumb now.

yah, mau saya teriak teriak sampai habis darah dan air mata juga semuah hal itu ga akan kembali. should think like grown ups do. forgiving (myself, him, our condition) and forgetting (those awful lovely memories)
adios, su. you ARE the best thing that could happen in my life.